Inspiration

This is a long one...

Last weekend I thought to text my high school bestie, Natalie, as I normally do during the holiday time to see when she was headed back to Waco to see if we could squeeze in a little hang time.

We ended up going to her brothers show (David Ramirez, look him up... www.davidramirezmusic.com) in Conroe. I had not seen David since Tulsa so it had been a good minute or so and of course he did not disappoint. I am not sure I can even explain how I feel when I see David play, it always feels the same, a good feeling but also it hits every emotional spot that I have. I think of the good and the bad and I just get so inspired by his stories and little comments between every song.

After the show Natalie asked me if I wanted to hang out with her and David longer, well duh more bestie time is what I thought. We went to a bar where the walls were covered in paintings of naked women and Natalie and I thoroughly discussed how weird bars are during the day and how we thought this one would be the strangest during day light with its red walls and interesting people.

I met lots of people this night, a girl with multi colored hair named Meredith, her laugh stood out to me and she was definitely a character I would like to be around more often, she lives in Portland (of course, so cool). I met people I have seen on David’s social media many times and it was nice to put personalities to faces. We all just sat in the rain and I as I usually do (so introverted) just sat there and watched/listened and took in the moment. I listened to discussions about star wars, learned about a cat app, watched an awkward first date pan out, and I enjoyed every second in between.

Fast forward a couple drinks in...David and I discussed how we truly are doing, and when I am I asked this, I usually brush it off with a “it’s whatever” because I just don’t want people to feel bad for me. He told me instantly that it isn’t whatever and to tell the truth and say that I am not ok. It was a relief to hear this, honestly. A person who I have always looked up to as a brother figure, telling me that it’s ok to feel this right now and that he felt the same way. And just after this, our night took a turn. I opened up to Natalie about how I was doing with the break up which is something I just have not been talking about for a while because it gets tedious to talk about and I don’t want to be a downer. But it is something that is apart of my life right now that I am accepting and moving forward from. Mid sentence, Natalie just looks at me with her sweet sympathetic face and tells me “I love you.”

Natalie is the best friend you could possibly imagine. A friend who will cry with you when you tell her about the break up you're going through even over the phone, a friend who will break out into dance with you just with a simple look of “this is about to happen,” a friend who is down for literally anything you can even think of. She is so loyal, humble, sweet, willing, hilarious, and I could go on and on.

We went to a house after the bar closed to hang out even more and Natalie, Trish (one of the personalities put to a face/name from David’s social media), and I just stood around in the kitchen and talked about age, life, and boys. Then our night ended with everyone sitting around in a circle on the front porch naming movies and guessing the dates they came out, which made me realize I need to watch a lot of movies but that I am also pretty good at guessing time frames.

As if I was not already so inspired (this is such an introverted post, inspired by every single little moment that was made with a small group ha), David, Natalie, and I got real deep on our drive back to Sugar Land. Discussing when David started to sing and then my photography and what I like to do verses what I believe makes the money and then we got into what we should be doing to make ourselves happy, not what is expected of us to ‘bring home the bacon.’ We discussed different singers/song writers and photographers and then we just sat in silence until David let out a big scream saying this kind of stuff gets him so inspired. It was fun. Realizing that no matter how much success/fame/recognition you get, as an artist inspiration is such a high and bouncing ideas off of each other is something that you don’t always come by but should always take in and savor.

This night changed my outlook on the entire week. Yes, I went to work at anthropologie the next day but I also took photographs the next morning. There has to be a balance as to what I do, work wise, and inspiration wise and I think that I am finding the balance and my heart and mind just seem a little happier lately.

I know this post is a little all over the place but I hope whatever I am feeling right now portrays and that I can look back at this post and just smile when I need to.

What inspires you most? Music, photography, sitting at a bar in the rain with a few friends that you just made? Let’s get some coffee and discuss this...