Reunited and it Feels so Good

I have spent the last at least 5 months without a best friend. Yes, I have many really good friends, most I do call my besties. But there will always be that one that knows everything, has no judgements towards you, and the same goes for you to her. This is the friendship that you can do nothing together and have a good time, or do the craziest things together and have no clue how you ended up there, but you're happy it's together.

I have also gone through so many internal battles during this time. Thoughts and emotions you don't ever want to go through alone, but I have.

And, on top of all of this, I have been dating. Dating is a loose term. I have been ending up “talking” to guys who don't want anything exclusive and I naively stick around thinking they will change their mind or I spend my time convincing myself I don't want anything more anyway. Let's just all agree, dating sucks.

But also, figuring out where I need/want to be, what's next.

Reminder, doing this on my own.

Until last night. I spent a few hours with my bestie. We didn't discuss why we hadn't talked regularly anymore, or why we ever stopped. Because we needed each other in that moment to catch up, let everything out, and just be. I can't tell you how many times I have cried today thinking of how happy I am. Happy to have my bestie back in my life, someone to confide in, with no judgements, but with advice or just agreement.

I 100% believe you need to do life with people. I have been a wreck without having a stable person to go to. This doesn't mean I haven't had people, but when you have that one person, your person, it's crazy to lose that person for a period of time for no particular reason. But it's really great to have that back.

I just felt like sharing, because I cannot imagine I am the only person who has ever gone through life alone and felt like nothing could possibly mend a friendship that just randomly faded away. Here's to happy restarts and a new week.